TW⚠️: talking about blood…
I never realized how powerful the thoughts we think are until my nose started bleeding.
When you are told you’ll never be good enough, you’ll never be successful, and that you’re going to “hell” for your lifestyle… it sends you in a downward spiral.
You question those sentences at first, and then the more you hear them, you begin to doubt your purpose, worth, and why you’re here anyway.
That was me, Keely.
As I continued to believe these thoughts that were so deep rooted, it showed in every area of my life.
My willingness to spread myself thin, be all things to all people, sacrifice my own needs, and to stay with people who emotionally abused me was all I knew how to do.
Putting myself last was a way of life until I became angry. I was mad, hateful, resentful and I became the toxic one.
I was so angry for the way I was treated and I started to take it out on the people closest to me, and on myself.
I said things to myself I’d never want to say out loud.
You see… one day my nose started bleeding out of nowhere. I thought it was strange but didn’t think much of it.
Then after another tough day it happened again. It was at that moment I realized the anger I was carrying was hurting myself so much that it was physically coming out through my nose.
To this day, anytime I am not doing something that is aligned with me for long periods of time… my nose will bleed. It is a sign to myself something has to change.
I guess I am sharing this with you because how we see ourselves and what we think about lives within us.
We can’t always see how badly we are hurting internally.
Let's do a check-in, my friend.
I want you to check in with yourself, so ask yourself...
- Is there something your body is trying to show you about what needs to change in your life?
- What is my body trying to tell me?
- Do you want something different than the reality you are currently creating?
- How can you create this new reality for yourself?
You can have that.
We are here for you. So much has changed since then… I began healing myself, and released so much of the anger I was carrying for YEARS. We can heal. I am telling you.
If you have had a similar experience and want to learn more about how you can start living freely, click here.
Dani & Keely
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